It's draining me this feeling, this time, this emptiness.
It's been way too long.
If I could I would change things that I've messed up really badly.
The opportunities and chances that I've missed or even stop trying.
The friendships, the what to do and what not to do.
The what to say and the what not to say.
The how to act and the not suppose to act.
This uncertainty is just a period or should I say a phrase?
What will I be studying?
Will I be sucessful at what I'm doing?
Will I just love me for being me.
It's all just a blur right now but I know for one thing that it will all be ok in his time and that whatever happens now come what may.

Year 2008, a new year, new beginnings, new hope, new friends! It's now already the 2nd last week of February. Time has gone by so fast. Currently into the 3rd week of Tafe and so far things are coming out smoothly. This semester units are somewhat difficult for me and also there is a lot of group work and assessment. Somehow starting from somewhere I need to communicate and relate to my friends and not be shy and just be open and not keep things in too much. I don't want to be the same person I was before! I want to look forward and try not to look behind at the past. What's past is past now is the present. Trying not to hold back! Don't want to be lazy. Even though some units I am doing again, even though some people might think I'm stupid and laugh at me I want to not feel bothered about what their thoughts are. I just want to be the real me, the one who can find happiness, the one who has hope, faith, strength to believe that all things are possible in Christ Jesus and to realize that I am not alone!