Tis been a long journey been picking up bits and pieces together which I've left out for a long time.
I am used to the same old routine but in the matter of fact it's pointless and useless and doesn't really benefit that much.
Why can't I just leave it all behind me.
Be the one I'm suppose to be.
I can't go back in time to change my past mistakes.
Been living in the shadow of my mistakes.
Who am I?
Who do I want to be?
Where do I see myself in the next half of the year?

I don't have a bed to sleep in because my dad moved it to the new place.
So currently I'm sleeping on the couch!
Pretty much been busy with assignments that are due this week and tests that are this week as well.
Housekeeping work placement will start next week for 2 weeks on a Tuesday.
I'm not quite enjoying my course.
Countless times I just want to give up on it but I have to finish it even though it makes no sense to me.
Too much thoughts of If Only, Me, Regrets, The Only One, Stupid, HS Dropout... This List Goes On and On...


Stellar Kart - Me And Jesus lyrics

When there's nowhere else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one
Understands where you are

[chorus]
Someone loves you even when you don't think so don't you know you got
Me and Jesus by your side through the fight you will never be alone on your own you got me and jesus

After all that we've been through
Be now you know i've doubted too
But everytime my head was in my
Hands you siad to me
Hold on to what we got
This is worth any cost so
Make the most of life
That's borrowed
Love like there's no tomorrow

It's 1:05am and it is raining now and I am making a post.
On Friday was ONE which is a combine gathering between Fyre and Agape.
I volunteered to help Adrian with cooking French Onion soup.
The worship was awesome, I haven't felt like that in ages.
The message got me thinking about somethings anyways the food was so delicious.
French Onion soup with toasted cheesy bread on a cold night that sure warmed me up.
I didn't go church on Sunday because I had to do assignments.
Missed out on the skit for Mother's Day.
Had dinner at South Ocean with the usual people like Uncle Edmund's family and Uncle Sam's family.
Watched soccer at Hannah's place on Sunday night, the match was Manchester United vs Wigan and Manchester United won.
Today I handed in my Budgets assignment which I was working on it since about 12:30am till about 5:00am.
Pretty much have lots and lots of assignments to do and I don't quite know how to do them.
Anyways it's so late now so I'm off for now!
Toodle, till next time. Adious! Ciao!

I got to get back to the basics.
I got to get back to the foundation.
I got to get my priorities right.
So many got to's and no action.
I've lost sight of my vision somewhere along the line.
I've been circling and circling around the same type of problems and infact it's making me tired.
I want to give up but I can't!
I have to give it all to the one who loves me the most but I do find that difficult.
It's like I'm running away but I'm not backing down.
Something in me does not want to give up.