Currently now am feeling sick in the gut and I think only I know why.
My head freaking hurts think I'm having a migraine right now.
My bones ache, a bit shortness of breath.
I've decided to get fit which will be beneficial to my health.

Wow it's been ages sinces I've updated.
Attended my brothers gratuation ceremony.
Lots of students and familiar faces, happy families and lots of photo taking.

On Monday Perth had experience a Hail Storm like never before in over 50 years.
Thank goodness I wan't caught in it.
It caused major damage all over Perth.
Hail Storm the size of golf balls damaging cars and houses and causing public transport to be delayed.
Streets were flooded, some parts of UWA got destroyed.
What a catastrophe.

Anyways the past week or so ago had pretty much been great.
Caught up with all the cousins, played with my nephew and nieces.
Saw my nephew that came over from Melbourne.
His name's Josiah and his such a cutie pie, I'm going to miss him now.
Slept over again at a friends place.
Packed my luggage for my flight back to Singapore!
I KNOW IT'S WAY OVERDUE BUT...
GUESS WHAT I'M IN SINGAPORE NOW!!!
Left Perth at around 9.40pm on the 6th.
Arrived close to 3 in the morning on the 7th.
Aunty Ann picked me up and we went to have supper because I was freaking hungry because of travelling by Tiger Airlines.
Saw my niece Leanne for the very first time.
She's sooo adorable!
Anyways too tired to blog anymore will tell you all next time!

This year festive season seems to be really awesome.
Had Christmas lunch at my Aunt and Uncle's place.
Cousins from Melbourne came down.
Then time to open the presents because of my lovely niece Kimberley who couldn't wait any longer.
Pretty much got a cup, and insulated artsy cup, lindt chocolate, nail polish, lip gloss and a Tee-Shirt. AWESOME MUCH?
After that watched a movie called Poker King, hilarious Louis Koo.
Had left over dinner after that and then we all walked to see the award winning christmas lights that was pretty near by.
Headed home after that.

Yesterday I watched Avatar 3D with Elaine and her brother.
OMG Avatar is so awesome some more much more awesome with 3D.
After that headed over to Tessa and Sonia's place.
Stayed over at their house yesterday and it was awesome!
Played the board game called The Game Of Life, haven't played it in like forever.
We also played card games and just chatted.

Anyways one thing I forgot to mention is that work at Subway which was monday was good apart from humilating myself infront of staff and customers.
Lol I thought I pointed the sauce bottle at the sub but in the end it landed in my eye because I pointed it facing towards me. LOL>_< ! Also injured myself by scraping my finger on the metal counter above and now there is a scar on my finger.

Toodles for now.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! =)

Time is moving on so are people but why am I still stuck in that midst of time?
I know I'm part of something big but yet I can't see that I can't feel that or I can't grasp it.
I know it's within my reach I know I have to live life everyday but I just can't get into it the way I use to, it's somehow slipping away slowly.
At present for me life is mundane.
So many questions, so many experiences, so many I guess I'm just out of touch.
Will just have to leave it as it is for today and to stop worrying because it doesn't get me anywhere.

Currently listening to Westlife's new album and it's so good.

No More Heroes
When the waves are crashing down
Pulling you to sorrow
I will sail you back to shore
When there are no more heroes

Over under, near or far
I'll be right beside you
Standing here with open arms
When there are no more heroes

[Chorus:]
And through it all and through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
[ Westlife Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

It was you who showed me how
Brought me back to glory
Through hopelessness and darkest days
It was breath you gave me

[Chorus:] (3x)
And through it all and through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

When there are no more heroes...

Earlier today had to buy the drinks for flo's birthday tmr.
So crazy was buying so many drinks and people were like staring.
Had to tell them the truth and also felt really bad stripping the drinks off the shelves from Coles.
Gahh can't stand it my hair is falling out so much! Arhhh!!!

Anyway it's been a while but I can't remember the details of the remaining North Trip but will probably post pictures up some of them.

North is Beautiful.
Went up north pretty much the first week of the holidays.
Didn't really have much time to travel/visit places but visited a few.
Broome was pretty, cable beach Sunsets were lovely.
Zendus Restaurant(not sure how to spell it) was really good because of Armin and whose not to forget Noodle Fish.
Where the adults couldn't find the restaurant they thought it was an Asian restaurant and went to every Asian restaurant near that vicinity and then they finally asked a Chinese lady where the restaurant is.
It was located at a corner that is secluded from the other restaurants really quiet. When it came to taking orders being my mom she asked the guy whether they had Noodle Fish and he was like joking with her describing what the dish is and he was like sorry we don't sell that and we were like laughing.
Food there was good especially not to mention the delicious dessert. Yummm Panne Cotta and others that I can't remember now.
Can't really remember what really happened throughout the whole trip.
After Broome passed by Port Hedland to get to Exmouth.
Did some touristy spots at Exmouth can't really remember what they were but I'm pretty sure we saw the Lighthouse there and a creek or something.

This song reaffirms me that I should continue no matter what even if I don't feel like it and I know that I can't do it but I think I can still try.

I have to make a big decision in this coming week.
Am still praying about it.
Not quite sure what to do about it.
I'm going to sleep.

I'm such an idiot had a shouting match with the mother earlier today.
Argghh gosh just don't know what to do with where I'm headed.
Should I just quit or should I just continue with the course?
I always mess up.
I want something new.
I want something to be accomplish.
It's wearing me down.

Life's pretty much been up and down good and bad.
I worry about the littlest things and making it such a huge thing which doesn't really matter.
BLAHH. BLAHH. BLAHH.
So it goes.

Gosh I'm not satisfied.

Excuses and only excuses that's what I know.
and it's aching me this life I lead.
I want to just run into your arms.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
I'm messing up other people's life as well.
What is the problem in the first place?
Not happy not happy.
I don't even understand.

I'm so tired with all the assignments.
It's draining me and I don't like it.
Someone please Help Me!

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
Never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I .. didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know, it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm Already Gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kissing
We could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

(already gone, already gone, already gone)

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

I'm not to sure of things as of this moment.
Should I be in a relationship should I not?
Been struggling in this for a while am still seeking.
But for one thing I'm sure of this is my heart's cry no matter how bad or how wrong it is at the end of the day.
Having learnt from enrich last friday about yearning.
I am yearning for love and friendship and I'm not sure how to go about that.
I'm sick of it all, sick of it all...


A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

Celebrated Fabian's 26th Birthday last week.
At Vic Park at some pub/restaurant.
The food there was not bad and reasonably priced.
Also last week was the first time for me exercising for a long time.
Exercised with a group of people at King's Park Jacob's Ladder.
Pretty tiring after that felt sick for a while.
Anyways on Saturday went to watch football match at Burswood with a few people after that then went to Paddy's for a bit then headed to Utopia for bubble tea but the kitchen was already closed so went to the other places that sells bubble tea. In the end finally got myself a bubble tea.
We then headed back to Utopia to see if the Karaoake was available but it still wasn't so we decided to head back home because it was already so late.

Where am I headed?
Where am I going?
At this point of time I have no clue at all.
Just doing the usual which doesn't really satisfy or mean anything.
Life should be a breeze but it's so damn confusing and complicated.
What have I done right or what have I done wrong.
Without much guidance or help along the way.
Am I to selfish or did I just walk the long and hard way the difficult path which should actually be so easy if I just obeyed and trust and relied on friends and on teachers.
What have I done for 6 years.
I'm so lost in it all just over my head.
What is friendship which I don't even try at all.
It ain't just easy for me, I've think I've lost it.
But all I'm clinging onto right now is HIM who will enable me and all things are possible in HIM through HIM.