This year festive season seems to be really awesome.
Had Christmas lunch at my Aunt and Uncle's place.
Cousins from Melbourne came down.
Then time to open the presents because of my lovely niece Kimberley who couldn't wait any longer.
Pretty much got a cup, and insulated artsy cup, lindt chocolate, nail polish, lip gloss and a Tee-Shirt. AWESOME MUCH?
After that watched a movie called Poker King, hilarious Louis Koo.
Had left over dinner after that and then we all walked to see the award winning christmas lights that was pretty near by.
Headed home after that.

Yesterday I watched Avatar 3D with Elaine and her brother.
OMG Avatar is so awesome some more much more awesome with 3D.
After that headed over to Tessa and Sonia's place.
Stayed over at their house yesterday and it was awesome!
Played the board game called The Game Of Life, haven't played it in like forever.
We also played card games and just chatted.

Anyways one thing I forgot to mention is that work at Subway which was monday was good apart from humilating myself infront of staff and customers.
Lol I thought I pointed the sauce bottle at the sub but in the end it landed in my eye because I pointed it facing towards me. LOL>_< ! Also injured myself by scraping my finger on the metal counter above and now there is a scar on my finger.

Toodles for now.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! =)

Time is moving on so are people but why am I still stuck in that midst of time?
I know I'm part of something big but yet I can't see that I can't feel that or I can't grasp it.
I know it's within my reach I know I have to live life everyday but I just can't get into it the way I use to, it's somehow slipping away slowly.
At present for me life is mundane.
So many questions, so many experiences, so many I guess I'm just out of touch.
Will just have to leave it as it is for today and to stop worrying because it doesn't get me anywhere.

Currently listening to Westlife's new album and it's so good.

No More Heroes
When the waves are crashing down
Pulling you to sorrow
I will sail you back to shore
When there are no more heroes

Over under, near or far
I'll be right beside you
Standing here with open arms
When there are no more heroes

[Chorus:]
And through it all and through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
[ Westlife Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

It was you who showed me how
Brought me back to glory
Through hopelessness and darkest days
It was breath you gave me

[Chorus:] (3x)
And through it all and through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

When there are no more heroes...

Earlier today had to buy the drinks for flo's birthday tmr.
So crazy was buying so many drinks and people were like staring.
Had to tell them the truth and also felt really bad stripping the drinks off the shelves from Coles.
Gahh can't stand it my hair is falling out so much! Arhhh!!!

Anyway it's been a while but I can't remember the details of the remaining North Trip but will probably post pictures up some of them.

North is Beautiful.
Went up north pretty much the first week of the holidays.
Didn't really have much time to travel/visit places but visited a few.
Broome was pretty, cable beach Sunsets were lovely.
Zendus Restaurant(not sure how to spell it) was really good because of Armin and whose not to forget Noodle Fish.
Where the adults couldn't find the restaurant they thought it was an Asian restaurant and went to every Asian restaurant near that vicinity and then they finally asked a Chinese lady where the restaurant is.
It was located at a corner that is secluded from the other restaurants really quiet. When it came to taking orders being my mom she asked the guy whether they had Noodle Fish and he was like joking with her describing what the dish is and he was like sorry we don't sell that and we were like laughing.
Food there was good especially not to mention the delicious dessert. Yummm Panne Cotta and others that I can't remember now.
Can't really remember what really happened throughout the whole trip.
After Broome passed by Port Hedland to get to Exmouth.
Did some touristy spots at Exmouth can't really remember what they were but I'm pretty sure we saw the Lighthouse there and a creek or something.

This song reaffirms me that I should continue no matter what even if I don't feel like it and I know that I can't do it but I think I can still try.

I have to make a big decision in this coming week.
Am still praying about it.
Not quite sure what to do about it.
I'm going to sleep.

I'm such an idiot had a shouting match with the mother earlier today.
Argghh gosh just don't know what to do with where I'm headed.
Should I just quit or should I just continue with the course?
I always mess up.
I want something new.
I want something to be accomplish.
It's wearing me down.

Life's pretty much been up and down good and bad.
I worry about the littlest things and making it such a huge thing which doesn't really matter.
BLAHH. BLAHH. BLAHH.
So it goes.

Gosh I'm not satisfied.

Excuses and only excuses that's what I know.
and it's aching me this life I lead.
I want to just run into your arms.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
I'm messing up other people's life as well.
What is the problem in the first place?
Not happy not happy.
I don't even understand.

I'm so tired with all the assignments.
It's draining me and I don't like it.
Someone please Help Me!

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
Never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I .. didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know, it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm Already Gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kissing
We could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

(already gone, already gone, already gone)

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

I'm not to sure of things as of this moment.
Should I be in a relationship should I not?
Been struggling in this for a while am still seeking.
But for one thing I'm sure of this is my heart's cry no matter how bad or how wrong it is at the end of the day.
Having learnt from enrich last friday about yearning.
I am yearning for love and friendship and I'm not sure how to go about that.
I'm sick of it all, sick of it all...


A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

Celebrated Fabian's 26th Birthday last week.
At Vic Park at some pub/restaurant.
The food there was not bad and reasonably priced.
Also last week was the first time for me exercising for a long time.
Exercised with a group of people at King's Park Jacob's Ladder.
Pretty tiring after that felt sick for a while.
Anyways on Saturday went to watch football match at Burswood with a few people after that then went to Paddy's for a bit then headed to Utopia for bubble tea but the kitchen was already closed so went to the other places that sells bubble tea. In the end finally got myself a bubble tea.
We then headed back to Utopia to see if the Karaoake was available but it still wasn't so we decided to head back home because it was already so late.

Where am I headed?
Where am I going?
At this point of time I have no clue at all.
Just doing the usual which doesn't really satisfy or mean anything.
Life should be a breeze but it's so damn confusing and complicated.
What have I done right or what have I done wrong.
Without much guidance or help along the way.
Am I to selfish or did I just walk the long and hard way the difficult path which should actually be so easy if I just obeyed and trust and relied on friends and on teachers.
What have I done for 6 years.
I'm so lost in it all just over my head.
What is friendship which I don't even try at all.
It ain't just easy for me, I've think I've lost it.
But all I'm clinging onto right now is HIM who will enable me and all things are possible in HIM through HIM.

I'm extremely happy today because first up Tafe called me and told me that my wallet is safe with them. All my cards are in it except for money. Thank God and yes I believed that he has kept it safe for me. Will be collecting it today in the late afternoon.

OMG I'm in big trouble. I didn't realise I lost my wallet until after dinner.
Sob my Singapore Identification Card is in it. Man am so going to call up Tafe tomorrow because if it's lost then it's very troublesome because will have to report a lost Identification Card. Will take a long time for the processing of a new Identification Card.

Hey There Delilah

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. I’m not tagging anyone because I’m just doing this for being bored.


IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Put Ya Money Where Ya Mouth Is! - Oasis

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Still in Love - Brooke Fraser

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Before It’s too Late - Goo Goo Dolls

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Enough Crying - Mary J Blige

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Your Not Alone - Saosin

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sweet Thing - Keith Urban

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Who Needs Love - Razorlight

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Sorry Blame Me - Akon

WHAT IS 2+2?
Great DJ - The Ting Tings

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Do The Moo Shoo - Veggie Tales

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Beautiful Savior - Casting Crowns

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I Found Out - The Pidgeon Detectives

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
My Window - Save The Last Dance Soundtrack

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
A Paris - Celine Dion & Les 500 Choristes

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
It’s All About You - McFly

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
(So I’ll Sit Here)Waiting - The Like

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Banner - Casting Crowns

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Make Me Better - Fabolous ft NeYo

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Get It On The Floor - DMX

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Superman - Ronan Keating

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Home - Chris Daughtry

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Grenade Jumper - Various Artist

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Big Girls Don’t Cry - Fergie

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Achmed the Dead Terrorist - Jeff Dunham

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
One to Ten - Se7en

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
She’s So Lovely - Scouting For Girls

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Drop - Timbaland & Magoo ft Fatman Scoop

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
In This Life - Delta Goodrem

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
I’m Sorry - Boa

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Hey There Delilah - Plain White Tee’s

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”

Mary Stevenson, 1936

Got this from Hannah Choo's livejournal...

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
Caesar dressing.

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Hmm actually don't have one.

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
Maybe Spaghetti.

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Personal choice would be mushrooms, chicken, mozarella.

What do you like to put on your toast?
Strawberry Jam or Peanut Butter.

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
One HD Tv the rests not in use probably another 2.

What color of cell phone do you have?
White and red.

***************BIOLOGY******************
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right.

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Nope.

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
The vacuum cleaner.

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Nope!

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Of course not!

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Yeh but then again I don't have an english name so not to sure what I would change it to.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Depends what hot sauce it is.

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
3

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
Haven't been in one.

Last person you talked to?
Dad.

Last person you hugged?
Dad!

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
Hmmm depends love the cold winter maybe depends probably autumn.

Holiday?
Christmas celebration.

Day of the week?
Friday

Month?
Jan

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
Yes...

Mood?
Uncomfortable.

What are you listening to?
Secondhand Seranade - Fall for you.

Watching?
Actually reading a manga.

Worrying about?
Tafe and studies and friends.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
Toilet.

What's the last movie you saw?
Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging(on the computer)

Do you smile often?
Not really

QUESTIONS

1)Do you always answer your phone?
Yes.

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Hmm nobody.

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Dark brown maybe.

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
What's sonic?

5) Do you own a digital camera?
No I really want to.

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yes many many many years ago fighthing fish!

7) Favorite Christmas song?
Don't actually have one.

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
Haha my birthday just passed.

9) Can you do push ups?
Not really.

10) Can you do a chin up?
Nope!

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Nervous very nervous.

12) Do you have any saved texts?
Yes.

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
Don't think so but then again parents did say when I was like a baby or something.

14) Do you have an accent?
Not really probably a Singaporean one but then with my Aussie friends yeh will put on one.

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Hmm haven't really had one.

16) Plans tonight?
Nope apart from reading.

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yes now and then.

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
School fees, food, and more food.

19) Have you ever been given roses?
Never.

20) Current worry?
Future, studies, job, friends.

21) Current hate right now?
Who I am right now.

22) Met someone who changed your life?
Hmm can't remember.

23) How did you bring in the New Year!
Lol funny one came back from the coach from malaysia to singapore arrived just before countdown and fireworks appear.

24) What song represents you?
At the moment I don't have one.

25) Name three people who might complete this?
I don't care!

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
Hehe watching Green Forest, My Home on Youtube.

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Woot no Tafe today! Can just laze around.

Arhhh I so miss my brother since his been gone for a very long time!
Been reading the book that my dad has passed me it's called The Shack.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Shack

First day back at Tafe today was ok had only one class.
Was a bit late I guess but then again didn't mix with the group.
My eyes hurt, hy head hurt must be the weather.
Having an off day tomorrow as well yeah!

Bigger expectations of me this year.
Wanting to learn more and opening up more to people around me.
Going to learn more General Knowledge.
Learning how not to be fake.

A very belated posts. Flew back to Perth on my birthday!
Anyway to top things up! Festivities in the air.
Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Xi Fa Cai
Also Happy Australia Day!

Wow this past weeks have gone by fast and what I'm flying back home to Perth on my birthday. What a way to spend my 20th birthday alone and on a plane. Celebrated my birthday with my cousins yesterday at Dempsey's La Forketta

Things done in the Summer so far...
*Malaysia
*Attended a Wedding
*Hanged Out with the Cousins in Malaysia
*Ate good Malaysian Food
*Met Joni
*Met Yu Win and Kimberly
*Playing with my Nieces and Nephews
*Shopping at One Utama and The Curve
*Travelled Back to Singapore on New Years Eve
*Spend Time with the Aunties and Uncle's
*Aunt's Birthday at Marina Mandarin
*Met Up with Hong Yi, Emerald and Pearl
*Met Up with Jon, Angel, Liz, Caris, Jasmine for lunch