Was just thinking of something then this song popped into my head.


Forgetting what lies behind
Setting our hearts on the prize
Always keeping our eyes on our Lord Jesus
We’re running the race to win
All the way to the end
Laying down every sin
That would seek to hinder us
Chorus
And we’ll be faithful to our calling
For You are able to keep us from falling
And in Your promise, we will trust
You’ll be faithful to finish the works
You’ve began on us

My heart hurts.
Both emotionally, physically and maybe even spiritually.
Maybe I should start eating healthy and keep fit by exercising.
Maybe that's why I get headaches often and feel out of breath lately and also can't concentrate properly.
Plenty of times I put on a don't care attitude and act all blur but in fact I'm lost in thoughts somewhere and just need to talk it all out.
I'm still undecided about a lot of things, I want to experience things and life and have good friendship with other people.

Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere.
That's how I feel sometimes.
It comes to the point of my life that what I do now doesn't make much sense.
I want to go back but I can't so just have to move forward.
I know I am accepted and loved by people who care for me and Jesus but somehow it doesn't click.
There's so much more to life.
The joy of the lord is my strength.