Just looking at back and I stumbled across some really nice scenery pictures taken by me using my phone. These pictures are not in order by the way. How amazing is it. God's creation, it makes me appreciate more. Even though I have my struggles I know that he's there for me but it's kind of hard sometimes and there's stuff in my life right now that I know that's not pleasing to him. It's just so hard and so tempting to follow after him. I really really do want to make an effort to get to know him better even though I'm lazy and selfish and like to do things my way. I know doing things his way and relying on him is better and I know I will have to sacrifice many many things. It's just to hard, sometimes I just want to cry and give up but I know his there for me. He was always there for me when I'm down when I don't realised it. He has given me the strength and perseverance through the problems I face. Why do I always run away. I don't want to. I sometimes don't understand. I really really want what's best for me. I don't even know what my future is going to be. I don't even know what I want in life. It seems pointless but I know he suffered for me. He suffered and I know I know deep in my heart I love him so much. Just give me the strength and the understanding because I'm weak. I need you God I need you more then ever. I need to know. I really need to start trusting in you, and practising my faith. I don't want to do this alone anymore...

I set the alarm to wake up at 11am but in the end it didn't work.
I woke up a few times and fell back to sleep.
In the end I woke up properly at about 12pm++.
Watched Scrubs on Yu Min's computer then ate leftover Spaghetti.
Finished lunch then went to church.
Worship was awesome.
I felt a burden lift from me, it was really refreshing.
Yeahh then Yu Min prayed for me, prompting of the Holy Spirit.
I managed to take some notes from the sermon which was a little bit "boring"
Yeahh after church we went home.
I decided not to go soccer because like almost everyone will be going to the global day of prayer which I completely forgot about and it's also really cold and rainy.
Anyways after that when Yu Min came back from soccer he told me that we were invited to Emerald's place for dinner.
Sweeet!!! Dinner at Emerald's we ate mash potatoes, goulash(stew like), peas, carrot cake.
As for drinks we had like a avocado milo shake which was pretty scrumptions.
Goshhh feel like a pig! After dinner then we watched Grey's Anatomy.
Haha funny episode after that we went home.
Yeahhh good...What a great dayyy!!! I'm so happpy!

Yeahh yesterday as an Agapian cell we celebrated Kelwin's Birthday.
Jon picked me up and we went to Kenny and Amy's place.
We played Sing Star for a while because Adrian wasn't ready yet.
At around 6.15++ we then headed towards Kelwin's place to help out with the suprise birthday present a bed frame.
Yup when we reached there they were about finish.
Then Adrian, Jon, Kenny, Amy and Me went to go Hilary's Boat Harbour first.
Yeahh we were all so bored in the car then we started singing Singapore National Anthem, Malaysian National Anthem and also part of the Australian Anthem.
We then proceed onto singing cartoon theme songs like Captain Planet.
Hehe that was fun.
We were the firsts ones to reach the restaurant.
Jon was trying to be funny he ate Starbursts lollies with a knife and fork.
Then the rest of the cell members arrived shortly.
We then said grace and then headed towards the buffet table.
The Seafood didn't look fresh so I didn't eat it.
Anyways the food wasn't that good sort of nearly puked.
The Desserts were not bad.
By the end of dinner I was really full and bloated.
So Kenny, Jon, So-En and Cathrine made a birthday cake for birthday boy.
Goshh I saw it and it was so disgusting.
They put like heaps of stuff and mixed it all up.
They then gave it to him to at least eat some.
The look on kelvin's face was horrible.
After that we quickly went back to kelvin's place.
Yup sort of got lost and we had to make a U-Turn.
Yup so kind of behind Kelwin's car.
Amy called Dawn to tell her to ask Kelwin to make a detour because we haven't reached his place yet.
So then once we reached Adrian and Jon had to park somewhere not noticable.
Then we went up to Kelwin's place.
We then had to hide in his room and closed the door because it was a surprise birthday present for him.
Yup so finally Kelwin came back, we sort of heard the conversation between him and Gene about no more toilet paper, we were like controlling ourselves not to laugh.
Then Kelvin came in to a room and we shouted Happy Birthday.
He was suprised alright.
Then after that we all went into the lounge room to talk and Kelwin opened his presents.
Haha after that we all and talked and joked then it was getting quite late.
Then we went back home!
Gosh I haven't laughed this much in ages!!!
Anyways HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELWIN!!!

Woahhh this week has gone by really fast.
At the start of the week I was complaining about how so many tests to resit.
Yeah and now it's over and I passed.
Thank goodness.
Hmmm the only thing is my assessment interview.
I haven't freaking found anyone to interview.
Was suppose to hand up today but who cares!
It would be considered my 2nd attempt if I handed in.
Anyways yeahh that's about that's happening at Tafe.

Monday was a good day as well. We all went out for lunch at Bull Creek Hawkers. Aunty Ming Hoon last day before she catches the plane. Aunty Ming Hoon, my mom and me ate Prawn Noodle Soup while my brother ate Laksa. Dad didn't want anything because he scapped off from me and my brother. Yep anyways after lunch dad drove to the airport because aunty Ming Hoon has to catch her flight. My brother, my mom and me helped aunty Ming Hoon to carry her luggage into the airport. At the counter she had a unfriendly and very strict check in ticketing lady. Aunty Ming Hoon's luggage overweight the lady asked her to take some stuff out. Thank goodness aunty Ming Hoon had an empty bag with her. So she packed the stuff that had to be taken out into her empty bag. Then it was time to say good bye to her. We said our good byes and she went into the departure hall and that was that. So dad drove my mom, my brother and me home. After that I watched the Taiwanese drama called Silence on my laptop. Gosh it's so good. Vic Zhou is acting in it...Ahhhh myyy <3!

Sunday was good. Don't know why but when I woke up I was really happy! Yup anyways had lunch at home then went to Church. I don't know why but in Church I was super happy! I registered for Church camp. I can't wait it's so going to be awesome. Yeahh so then after that went back home. I changed then my brother and me went to soccer. Anyways I saw Andria and Yvonne, so we walked to IGA to buy some food. Yeahh so they didn't have any money and I had to pay for them. Bought a packet of chips, starbust gummy for Mathias and also m&m crispy...I<3 m&m crispy! Yeah so we walked back and they were screaming because of the incoming cars. But anyways once we reached the soccer field we then looked for Terrence they all. They were playing soccer. Yup anyways I played for a while. Vinn sux!!! Lol he lost the soccer ball while I was trying to get it from him! Hahah lol and he missed the goal again even thought it was a penalty shot. Yeahh so yup in the end I only played for a while. Then after that was seating down with Andria and Yvonne and we were eating the chips. Then Jeremy, Terrence and the rest sit down and we all started talking. Then half way when talking Jasmine turns up. Goshh then Andria and Yvonne when hyper. Yeah then Andria had to leave. So then talked and talked yeah and the guys were so picking on Yvonne. Anyways it was getting dark so everyone left. At home then my parents had to go out for dinner because of somebodys birthday. Then my brother and aunty Ming Hoon and me decided to go to Ipoh Garden for dinner. I had Ipoh Hor Fun. It was so nice and warm because it was soup. My brother had Ipoh Hor Fun and aunty Ming Hoon had Wan Tat Hor and Inchik Cabin. Yeah after that when we finished we went home. Then after that at like 11pm we went to uncle Edmunds house for soccer. It was Arsenal vs Chelsea. Haha omg I was so happy to see Hannah. Gosh both of us were like CamWhoring the whole time!!! Haha I <3 you Hannah! Haha the match was 1-1. Yeah after that I went home and slept!