Anyways friday was family cell bbq.

Week 16 Tafe is gone. Only have 3 weeks left of Tafe. It's been really stressful with assignments and group work. I can't wait for the holidays! Yeah anyways this past week has been really hot. Over 30+ degrees, so hot until cannot stand! AHHHH I don't like it! Besides Tafe not much has been happening.

Okayy haven't been updating for a long time now.
I'm just going to post about my brother's 21st birthday.
On sunday the 4th of november my brother celebrated his birthday at Hana BBQ with church friends, high school friends and family.
I'll post the photos up another time because somehow the server seems busy and I can't upload any pics.
Once again,HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY YU MIN ONG MY BROTHER!!!

It's all head knowledge that I know that I'm loved just the way I am.
But at times I just don't see it.
3 years has passed.
I've made promises and broken them.
I've regretted so many things not being done.
I don't even know who I am anymore.
I'm losing interest in my studies it's not the same.
Somehow I'm living a double life.
I may be laughing and all smiles on the outside but on the inside I'm crying and in pain.
I'm not as innocent as you think I am.
I've done something over and over again that I should never do and yet still.
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH!!!

Haven't been blogging in such a long long time.
Anyways here's some pictures from Florence's Birthday BBQ at Kings Park which took place a few Sundays ago.

You Are An ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. In love, you are a smooth talker and incorrigible flirt. While you get into relationships easily, you don't tend to stick around when times get tough. At work, you do well in groups. You keep everyone laughing through difficult tasks. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor. How you see yourself: Capable, fair, and efficient When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, stubborn, and silly

What's Your Personality Type?

Midnight Hour - Running Away
Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if, there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me, I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Currently loving these songs at the moment.
The Pretenders - I'll Stand By You
Delta Goodrem - In This Life
Elisa - Dancing

Anyways I got to get back to studying which I have been procrastinating. Assignment which I have no clue on what to do. Test result on Friday I think I did not to good in it.

On a lighter note I'm going to post up a few pictures.
Adrian Cooking
Amy, Jen, Danson, Seiji
Me & Pearl
Emerald & Me

Another day goes by and still same old same old.
Nothing new been happening.
Wishing for something but have to work hard for it.
Shouldn't be striving anymore.
Not on my own strength but his strength.
Not another day goes by with me having so many regrets.
I've given up to easily and so many times.
Just a little thought...Don't Give up!

Hmmmhh I've just been thinking.
This past few days I've been sleeping.
I've pretty much not done any work.
Been slacking heaps.
Probably in a day sleep about 8 hours or less and also been on the net for way way too long.
Hmmm yeah I should start studying.
It just doesn't feel the same.

Less then half way more to go.
Only 3 months left and I'm still slacking.
More than 8 weeks have past for Diploma but it all still seems blur for me.
I have to catch up on my assignments that are due soon I think.
Hmmmm I so not loving it!

I'm feeling so much better now.
I'm recovering but it still hurts.
The last few days I've been keeping myself in my room.
Practically reading manga online.
I should be studying but don't feel like it.

Changed of layout. Feeling a little different.
Hoping to starting a new within.
Trying so hard not to focus on the negative.
Look up to a BIG GOD!
Trying to remember that I'm His PRINCESS and nobody can take that away from me.
I'm currently sick at the moment and feeling pretty terrible.
I'm not going to back down!

Time and again you reached out to me.
Looking past my faults you see my destiny.
Your hand of love reached out to me and set me free.
I will praise you Jesus all my days Sing of all your great deeds and your ways.
I will love you now and ever more love so amazing I adore!
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Do I really mean what I say. Opportunities after opportunities given to me but yet I throw them all away. I don't know myself anymore I don't like who I've become. I've become lazy, disobedient, rebellious and lie. You've thought me everything but I still am weak so very weak. I rely to much on myself.

I'm so unhappy.

Here are some more pictures...

The Simpsons set with Jon,Fabian, Florence, Amy & Me

okok here are the pics from the girls slunber party at Amy Lee's place...

Group shot
Funny faces everyone
Flo plucking my eyebrows
Breakfast made by Drew

So bored now so I just decided to post up a few pictures up to entertain you all...
one big happy cell



Anyways tafe started this week.
So far all the classes are going good.
First week already and I have like assignments and they are like all due in on week 3.
Ahhhhh not fair!!!

Pictures promised from the previous post...
Strawberry Daquiri
Original Ice with PassionFruit Sauce
Damnn Delicious...

Update Update Update...Will put up the pictures another day when I load it into the computer!!!
Wednesday the 18th July
Wonderful time spent with my cousin and my aunt and uncle and my kong kong.
At 6.20pm my brother and me left the house to go to their place.
I absolutely love their new place at South Perth.
The rooms are really big and spacious.
Ate a banana at their house while waiting for che che Jac and kong kong.
About 7+pm we left the house.
My uncle drove all the way to Inglewood where the Itallian cafe that we were going for dinner.
For drink I ordered a Strawberry Daquiri and took a picture of it.
It was really sour and not enjoyable and pricey as well I bet I can make a better Daquiri that I learnt from Tafe.
I ordered Black & White Lingunie.
In it was prawns, capsicum, roasted pumpkin,crutons and semi-dried tomatoes.
It was so delicious, one of the nicest pastas that I've ever tasted.
Too bad I forgot to take a picture of it.
After dinner we decided to have dessert at Icey Ice.
I chose a Original Ice Regular with Passionfruit Sauce.
I took a picture of it.
It so delicious, one of the best ice-creams ever!!!
Then my uncle drove back home.
Played Wii with my cousin che che Jac and my brother.
Created a Wii character for me.
I played with che che Jac tennis and baseball.
I so sux at tennis.
Then after that played boxing with my brother.
I won 1 round and he won 2 riunds.
My arm was really sore after that.
We then borrowed Follow The Law a Singapore movie acted by Gurmit Singh and Fan Wong and also we finally got Ugly Betty.
Yeahh then we went home.
SUPER HAPPY AND SUPER FULL!!!
I LOVE THIS DAY FOREVER.
<3

Blimey blow me away...It's been a gazillion years since I blogged.
Holidays are here!
1 more week left till the start of school.
It's gone by so fast.
I've done absolutely nothing this time.
Was suppose to find a job but I can't be bothered.
Just a little update had a slumber party with some of the girls from church.
Did make up and stuff and Flo shaped my eyebrows for me.
They look alright I guess.
Yup also had dinner with Aunty Ruby and family.
Sleptover at their house as well.
Watched Harry Potter with Emerald, Pearl, Vinn, Terrence, Dylan and Daryl.
The company was really funny.
That's pretty much about it I guess.

Holidays so far have been good.
Watched Transformers on Tuesday with the gang.(Sam, Flo, Amy, Drew, Aaron, Jon, Fabian and my brother.)
Such a good movie I can't believe looking back I sort of grew up watching Transformer cartoon with my brother. (=
Yup after the movie we all went to Fast Eddies to eat!
Shared a Banana Split with my brother and sam.
Then Joni and Allan and Adrian joined us.
Was so hilarious.
Awesome time spent and hopefully get to know you guys better!

Yeahhh I'm currently on my mid term break at the moment.
I have to find a job soon.

Yeahhh anyways Friday was really a good day.
Had powerhouse at the light house and then after that went to Concass with Daniel, Florence, Aarron, Eddie, Chris, Joni, my brother and me.
I drank a chocolate milkshake and it tasted too bland.
Then we all disscussed about our experience in camp and how God touched as.
It was really awesome to hear other people's experience and also got encouragement from them as well.

Saturday was also another awesome day.
Firstly went with mom to Myers at Garden City.
I didn't get to buy anything but she bought my brother Jacket.
Then after that she brought me to Subiaco to eat the famous Creepes.
It was so delicious!
Saw aunty Sophia there and she was surprise to see us coming all the way from the south just to eat the creepes.
Then in the evening I went to help out at Brownlie Towers Karaoke night.
It was heaps good and funy...Fabian and Tian sing! Haha!
After that went to have supper with Alvin, Hui Fu, Jeremy, my brother at me at NorthBridge Billy Lee.
The food was so good and we ate like heaps!!!
Then after that we went back home to give mom her porridge.
Then me and my brother went to Drew's house for games!
It was so funny!
<3 <3 <3

HOLLA EVERYBODY... LONG TIME NO SEE!!!
Finally Tafe's over and I'm currently having my mid term break.
School will start again on the 24th of July.
Yeahh anyways was not to happy with myself.
Had to re-enroll in 2 subjects so that means my diploma I will only be doing some of the units and have to complete the other units like another time.
Hmmm anyways moving on.
Yeahh I came back from Agape camp on tuesday.
Camp was awesome, it's so different from previous camps.
Yeah the people in my dorm were Jess Tran, Flo, Flick, Monique, Amy Loh and Janice.
Anyways my game group was called Sappers. Cool heh I think it means demolition engineers eg those people blowing up buildings.
Mmmh we were learning about from the book of Nehemiah.
About how Nehemiah rebuild the walls and how there were opposition against him but how God stood by him. It also talked about how to restore our broken walls and also how to rest in God.
In camp I spent the most time with So-En and also made new friends like Jacquline, Samantha.
The food at camp was really good and we ate lots and lots like maybe 6 meals a day.
The worship was really awesome, something different, something new.
Yeah also had some encouragement/word from God from people telling me that I'm Special in his eyes. That I'm his precious daughter. That he has a plan and future for me and that I don't have to worry and also don't have to compare myself with anyone else. Even all these things said it did made me feel a little better. I know all these and everything I've done and learnt it's a process between me and Him. I know my ways are wrong and I know I want to change. It will take time and I am willing!

1 More week and a bit to go before the School Holidays are here!
I so can't wait for it.
Agape Camp is this coming Saturday...WOOOT WOOOT!!!
Hmmm yeahhh so I still haven't done my powerpoint yet I going to do it as soon as I figure out what to put in it. Hmmm yeah I have 2 freaking resits to do tomorrow. Stuff it I bet I'm on re-enroll again.
I HATE IT A LOT. DON'T KNOW WHY I DON'T LIKE WHAT I'M DOING ANYMORE.

Hmmm booo yeahhh and hooo rayyy!!!
This week at Tafe is pretty hectic.
Have so many tests and group assessments.
First off Kylie's accounting tests I failed it!
It's so annoying and I hate it!
Hmm Norma's class is ok! I thought she was going to be hard on me because I haven't completed the assessment yet.
Suvitri's class I only pass o1 subject. I'm so stupid if I had handed in the interview a few weeks ago I could have pass. Just because I didn't hand in I passed the other bits of that subject just because of the interview thing I have to re-enroll again. IT'S SO UNFAIR. ): The group presentation was great!
Tuesday still got to do resits. It's so annoying!
I HATE IT!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SCHOOL HOLIDAYS TO COME!!!
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Goshhh it's been a long time since I realy actually studied. I think it was like 2 months ago maybe? Shocking eh! I should start somewhere. I got tests the whole of this week and group assessments. Someone please help me I don't know what to do and I seriously should stop stressing and worrying about it. I do tend to worry on the slightest of things and then the whole day in class is like stress. Mmmh anyways I don't know what to do. I was suppose to be studying but then I got distracted yet again. Anyways enough of my sob/sad story.

Far Out...So many tests to study and so many assignments to do.
My group is so unorganise. I hate it!
I don't even know what I'm really doing and it's annoying me.
Enough of my complains so here goes holidays are coming up soon.
I think like another 3-4 weeks.
Also Agape Camp is coming up!
Hehe so excited.
Last night cell was really good, it wasn't normal cell.
It was just worship and prayer and fellowship after.
It just lifted me up and I soaked in the presence.
Didn't feel tired I felt stronger and I know I can face whatever comes my way God's help.

I'm so behind in my work. I need to finish Norma's Database and do research on my power point presentation which I have no clue on what to do or how to start or how to put the information down. That sux I hate it a lot and it's also suppose to be a group work. Geez can't the group members at least tell me what to do? Or what kind of information to be put down? Hellloo can't you see that I'm stuck!!! For Kylie's class I will be having a freaking accounting test on Tuesday. I still don't get it! I understand the formulaes and stuff but it doesn't stick in my head and I have a tough time figuring out. Hopefully I will be able to pass and also I still have to do another resit test for Kylie. Goshhh it's so hard. Anyways Restaurant class I got a test as well which is on Wednesday. So many things to remember and study. For Bar class I also have a test! Geezz why do they freaking put so many tests on the same week. It's hard enough for me to study and concentrate on one but how many tests do I have? At least 4 tests. It sux real bad but anyways that's part of life. Have to learn how to deal with it. Also I still haven't done my interview yet for Suvitri's class and it's way way way overdue. Dammit! I can't. It's soo annoying!!!

What a great weekend I had.
Frstly on Saturday I went to a friend's birthday party.
Met her friends and also got to know some of my classmates better.
The food was really good. We ate sushi which my japanese friends made, homemade pizza, chicken, spring rolls, curry puff and apple pie with custard. We also played some party games like Twister, Musical Chairs and Paper Dance.
It then it was finally getting late we all then took group pictures.
My brother picked me up. Anyways my parents will back at midnight with Krispy Kreme Doughnuts...
I didn't pick them up because my brother went to Amy/Allan's house to play Wii and Sing Star at like 7+ and then after his picking them up from the airport and also I was tired out from the days event.
As soon as my parents stepped into the house I headed for the doughnuts.
Krispy Kreme and Dreamy Doughnuts are thee best!!!
And then helped mom to unpack her luggage and hahaha I got new clothes!!!
2 dresses and 2 tops...Yeahh I wanted new clothes!!!

Secondly on Sunday we were a little bit late for church.
The service was really good and we had a guest speaker.
We didn't finish until like 4 something 5.
After that I went to soccer with my brother.
It was freezing and I didn't play soccer was talking to Pearl the whole time.
After that it was getting dark so we all went home!
Then once I reached home I started seeing the korean drama that Emerald and Pearl lend me.
Omgg the korean drama is so good it's called Sweet Spy.
The actor is soo handsome and dreamy. Ahhh my <3
Dennis Oh my<3

Thinking about it I don't know what my future would be like.
I've been putting things off for a long time.
I haven't been doing anything.
I haven't been doing my assignments.
I haven't been studying.
I haven't been keeping fit.
I haven't been reading the Bible or spending time with God.
All I know is that I have been really lazy.
And I realised that I don't like it.
I want to change but do I really want to change.
Anyways I'm having a headache now so this post is crap!

Just looking at back and I stumbled across some really nice scenery pictures taken by me using my phone. These pictures are not in order by the way. How amazing is it. God's creation, it makes me appreciate more. Even though I have my struggles I know that he's there for me but it's kind of hard sometimes and there's stuff in my life right now that I know that's not pleasing to him. It's just so hard and so tempting to follow after him. I really really do want to make an effort to get to know him better even though I'm lazy and selfish and like to do things my way. I know doing things his way and relying on him is better and I know I will have to sacrifice many many things. It's just to hard, sometimes I just want to cry and give up but I know his there for me. He was always there for me when I'm down when I don't realised it. He has given me the strength and perseverance through the problems I face. Why do I always run away. I don't want to. I sometimes don't understand. I really really want what's best for me. I don't even know what my future is going to be. I don't even know what I want in life. It seems pointless but I know he suffered for me. He suffered and I know I know deep in my heart I love him so much. Just give me the strength and the understanding because I'm weak. I need you God I need you more then ever. I need to know. I really need to start trusting in you, and practising my faith. I don't want to do this alone anymore...