Today I didn't go to my parents shop to work. Just didn't feel like it. Instead I stayed at home. What did I do??? Nothing really except "waste time"...just did some science worksheet but still haven't finished. I should have done more...I got heaps of stuff to catch up on like english homework, S&E assignment speech overdue but got extension until monday then on tuesday got to do extended answer on it, got science test to revise, got maths test to revise on, both test on thursday, got to cook on wednesday-still not sure what to do for presentation, CBA can't cope with it because I still don't understand and stuck on it, library english work TOAD way overdue but working on it slowly because that cause a lot of marks for english, not really sure about the other work...been not that good in work this term...not sure why? Anyway, my cousin's Ann and Sarah came over, they bought pizzas, had to make fried rice while they were watching Starsky and Hutch with my brother. I finished cooking but missed the first bits of it. After that movie we all watched 8 Mile. Yeap...enjoyed myself tonight really did. I hope there will be more of this in the future!!!

Oh yeah!!! Yesterday was such a good day because had a barbecue in my cousin's house but I forgot to call Esther on her birthday to let her know that I couldn't make it. So delicious the food that we ate last night. Yum Yum!!!

I don't want to run away from problems in my life. No matter how hard or difficult it is. I just want to stand up! I want to learn how to fight for what is right! Not just cowardly running away, hiding from problems as though I don't have any. I want to learn...not hide... If I do I will try my best to be courageous. I'm sick of hurting myself and others. I need courage! I need friends who can encourage me! I don't want to be the same old same old person. I want to change for the better!!!

This week not that good been feeling down coz I don't feel like talking about it. But today is like the best of the week. Went for PDL tonight at the lighthouse. It was awesome. Got a word from the youth pastor. It really encouraged me a lot. After that uncle Henry picked me, Raphael, Jennifer and James up to go to his place. We had supper there. Yum so nice the mango gummy sweet. So addictive, I ate a lot of it.

Haven't been updating for such a long time. Been busy. Last saturday, there was this huge youth event called Adrenalin. I went there and enjoyed myself. Nothing much really happened.

I am so angry and annoyed at my mom and at myself. I am so stupid. I slept after school and I missed my math's tutition. Mom found out and then she ban me from going to the last social of the year. I threw this huge temper at my mom but she didn't let me attend. I am so dissappointed and embarrassed at myself for behaving really really badly. It's so unfair. Life is unfair!