Had the most awesome time during the weekend.
Florence stayed over on Friday night after droping Bec off and drove me home.
Made avocado shake to share with Florence.
Hmm watched My Sassy Girl but didn't finish it because it was getting late.
Showed her family photos of me and Yu Min. Heheh was hilarious.
Talked for a bit as well.
Then on Saturday we decided to go city but the plans changed as we were walking to the station and it was raining heavily so we decided to go back home.
Decided together that we should go to Cockburn Shopping Centre instead of The City because it will be raining and we would probably do lots of walking.
Anyways first up we had lunch from Subway.
Meatball sub the only way to go!
Then a mango magic from boost.
JB Hi-Fi was next, bought Josh Groban's A Collection.
Went to the Surf Shop next to try on bathers.
They were nice and a reasonable price but wasn't comfortable in it so we didn't get it.
Florence was looking through a shop for housewarming gift for one of the leaders but in the end didn't get it.
After that we went into this shop Motif, can't really remember and then I found this dress which is something like a pencil skirt dress I think and tried it on.
Was contemplating of buying it or not but then again got approval from my dad.
Florence even liked it she decided to buy the same dress.
Woahh can't believe bought a dress for like close to $60.
Anyways after that we went back home.
Hanged out a bit watched this movie called La Vi En Rose or something about this French singer.
Decided to order Domino's Pizza for dinner but it took so long to arrive.
We ate Supreme and I also ordered a Zesty Ceasar Salad, omg it was like a big potion the salad sure filled me up and I only had like 2 pizzas I'm not joking eh.
Anyways it was nearly sun down so Florence had to go back home.
So that was the end of a perfect weekend I guess that we should be doing this again sometime soon hopefully.

It's draining me this feeling, this time, this emptiness.
It's been way too long.
If I could I would change things that I've messed up really badly.
The opportunities and chances that I've missed or even stop trying.
The friendships, the what to do and what not to do.
The what to say and the what not to say.
The how to act and the not suppose to act.
This uncertainty is just a period or should I say a phrase?
What will I be studying?
Will I be sucessful at what I'm doing?
Will I just love me for being me.
It's all just a blur right now but I know for one thing that it will all be ok in his time and that whatever happens now come what may.

Lots of things hav been gone on for this week.
Firstly my grandfather passed away on Tuesday.
Didn't even see him before that (so sad).
Aunt and Uncle from Melbourne flew down on Wednesday.
Jennifer and Florence came down to my place on Thursday and we hanged out watching Bollywood movie of Shahrukh Khan (omg hmmm!)
Attended the funeral on Saturday.

Haven't updated in a while so here goes.
Attended Aaron Tan's Farewell/Birthday Celebration.
Attended Angel's 21'st 1920's Theme Party.
Anyways will post up the pictures when the internet is not so laggy.

Woo Hoo it was the first time in a very long time since I've been out of the house.
Met up with Cassie in the city at Borders. Finally bought myself Twilight by Stephanie Meyer. After that went to 78's Records and JB Hi-Fi bought some cd's as well. Then came home after that. Had massive headache the entire time I was at home. Just realise that she should have gotten the original copy of Twilight but didn't because it was cheaper. She regrets her decision because if she buys the other books next time they will have all matching book cover/theme.

Last night was the first time that I tried baking Pineapple and Carrot cake.
It wasn't a success but it is still edible I guess.

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

I've compromised again...
Sold myself short.
stupid stupid me...

Relient K - Pressing On
I think we're going somewhere
we're onto something good here
out of mind, out of state
trying to keep my head on straight
I think we're going somewhere
we're onto something good here
there's only one thing left to do
drop all I have and go with you.

Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind
my problems fell out of the back of my mind
We're going and we're never knowing
Never knowing where we're going
to go back to where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on

I'm pressing on
All my distress is going going gone
(pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't site back and take this anymore
cause I'm done with that I've got one foot out the door
And to go back to where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.

Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

You look down on me but you don't look down on me at all
You smile and laugh and I feel the love you have for me
I think we're goin somewhere
We're onto somethin good here
We're gonna make it after all

Relient K - Less Is More
Jesus, I pray
Take all my mistakes
Throw them away
Destroy them for my sake

Jesus, I call out 'cause I'm sorry
Because I fall so short of your glory
To the best of my ability
I'm practicing humility
And I lay myself before
'Cause less is more

All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more
All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more

I pour out myself
All that I am
You love me so much
That you fill me again
And may these words on my heart, on my lips
Somehow mean so much more than this

Jesus, I pray
Know what I'm trying to say

All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
'Cause to you less is more
All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more

I pour out myself, before you were Lord
I hold nothing back, 'cause to you less is more
And may these words on my heart on my lips,
Somehow mean so much more than this

Jesus, I pray
Just know what I'm tryin' to say

Jesus, I plead
Please purify me
Make my heart clean
Drench me with your mercy
Jesus, I pray
I love you, I need you
For the rest of my days
I swear I will seek you
To the best of my ability
I'm practicing humility
And I lay myself before
'Cause less is more.

Yes I can be extremely selfish and unlreliable at times.
I can be extremely rude and inconsiderate to other people.
I never experience many things because I don't try at all.
I think I may be afraid of many things that's why I'm stuck in this comfort zone.
Haven't dreamt BIG for a long time.
I'm such a noob...

Just one word.
Complacency.

Hmm somehow in the last few days or so I miss my gong gong a lot. Don't quite no why.

Last night I baked for the very first time in a long time.
Baked a butter orange cake for cell tonight hopefully it taste good.
Pretty much decided that I should bake more today to try out new recipes and stop idling and wasting time.

Anyways I've decided to change my layout because of everything that's been happening in the last few days. I've decided to get a fresh new start/out look on things that are to come and things that I will be facing. Camp was awesome I guess even though I didn't feel much of it but deep deep down inside I know something good was deposited. The theme song was Amazing Grace and yes now I know the lies and the deceit of the devil and now I have renewed strength and confidence to be who I am suppose to be. Yes I know my chains are gone and I've been set free and I have to continue to pursue and love him more and more each day and just draw close to him which I haven't in the past. Well the past is the past and now is now and I've decided to make that change for the better. I know now that I am victorious in Christ Jesus.

Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)"
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

"Hallelujah"

Well I heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
Well it goes like this :
The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...

Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
And she tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...

(Yeah but) Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor, (You know)
I used to live alone before I knew ya
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
and love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...

Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do ya
But remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah

Hallelujah...

[Instrumental]

Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelu...
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelu...
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah

Hallellllluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuujjjaahhhh...Hallelllluuuuuujjaaaaaaaaaahhhh

Arhhhhh why can't I freaking act my age for once and why can't my mom just live it be. Why can't I be who I want to be but why do I want to live in the shadows... Why can't I go back to how it was. 5 years has gone and pass what have I done really? Why can't I just...too much avoidance. Why can't I...There's so much freedom and there's so much more worth living for. I so need a happy pill.

Whatever You're Doing - Sanctus Real

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This *is* something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time *to* breathe in and let everything out

What's been up with my world for the last month?
Went back to Singapore for my Cousin's Wedding.
Missed my enrollments for Tafe so that means I have to find a job.
Spent time with my cousins from overseas who came down for the wedding.
Lots and lots of eating and also durians.
Went to Vietnam, saw some of the historic sights there like Cu Chi Tunnel, The Unification Palace.
Saw a Third World Country from a different perspective and Thank God that I am blessed.
Shopped at Ben Thann Markets, Saigon Square and some boutique's along Pasteur Road.
Spent some time with my cousin who I haven't seen in like whatt 8 years.
Went to some of the night spots in Vietnam like Sheraton Lounge, Lush and Sax in the Art, caught a few drinks and enjoyed the company between Sara, Joel and me.
Will post up the pics for another time.

Been in Singapore for a while already.
Attended my Cousin's Wedding which was spread out over 3 days.
Was good seeing relatives and cousins who came from The UK.
Caught up with them and enjoyed their company.
Been eating lots of local food and a lot of Durians.
Going to Vietnam early in the morning today!
Wooppiee can't wait.
Didn't enrol for this semester of school which means that when I get back to Perth I have to go find a job till the next semester.
Parent's friends brought us to the Singapore Flyer which was awesome because of the great view.
Ate at an International Buffet at the Swiss Hotel.
Have to go buy shoes which doesn't hurt my feet.
Definitely have to do more shopping which I didn't do much of.
Watched some of the opening of Beijing Olympics.
Watched some of the events of the Beijing Olympics.
Definitely HAVE TO MUST WATCH GYMNASTICS!!!
Pretty much sumed up what I've done so far.

About time to update what happened over the holidays.
Been living in my new place which is situated at Wellard.
Florence came over to help me unpack some of my things and she slept over as well.
Went shopping for my cousin's wedding which I will be attending this weekend.
Helped out in the Winter Olympics for children's church.
Had a babysitting job the other day without pay.
Danson and Florence stayed over as well and played Guitar Heroes.
Attended my niece's 1 year old birthday party.
Anyways spent most of the time at home unpacking.